I love you , :(

To you, Rayson.
I shall post all my feelings here instead ?

I know that maybe you will feeling fade for me is because of my attitude all this ?
But, I promise you i'll change my attitude all this means i will. I'm willing to change just for you only, just that i need more time. And maybe, you think i did not change? But i'll try my best to change. But why you cant give more time ? I know my attitude sucks at times, but i'm willing to change just for you. 我对你的爱永远是真的. 因为我知道我是真的爱你的,我也不想失去你.. I just want to tell you, i really love you alot. Without you in my life, i really dont know what to do.. I felt so lost without you. You're my everything, you meant alot to me in my heart. Without you, my life is so meaningless.. Whenever i close my eyes, memories started to flashback. Remembering the first time that we met, the way you ask me for stead, the way you sweettalk to me, those times that we always went out together, those times we always go school together, those times we always go eat lunch/dinner together, those times that you always sent me home after school, those times that we always take bus to school, those times where we go movie together, those times we always held hands together, those times we hug together, those times we kiss together. Those memories that we had together i wont ever forget because those memories are too awesome that i cant even forget. Do you still remember what you told me ? You said before that you will love me forever, you said you wont leave me alone, you said you want me to be your laopo, you said when you got money you will buy 10caret ring and propose to me next time, you said that even one day i go crazy, you will still want me. Do you know that whatever words you said to me, i felt so touched ? Do you know that i still love you alot ? Do you know that you meant alot to me ? Do you know that you're my everything ? Do you know that, inside my heart you're the only guy i loved ? Do you know that you're my everything ? Do you know that, whatever things i do i always think of you first ? Maybe you didnt notice, but i know i did. Maybe you think that i didnt change at all ? But wei le you, i'm willing to change my attitude all this. I know sometimes i no mood and you ask me what happen i never tell you. But not because i dont want tell you is because i dont know how to tell you . I'm sorry that sometimes i did give you my attitude, but do you know that, i felt upset too when i gave you attitude ? Maybe you didnt know, because i kept everything inside my heart. I know, maybe is because of this than your feelings towards me have fade. But, can you just trust me one more time and give me a chance ? I promise you i'll changed . I'll change just for you. If i dont love you anymore , i wouldn't have cried so badly because of you already. Is because i still love you alot and thats why i will cried so badly. Maybe is because i dont know how to express out my love towards you so thats why you cant feel my love. But, say seriously, i really fang bu xia you & this relationship.. I really love you alot. Though ya, i is used mouth to say that i love you and not actions but one day i will proof to you that my love for you is forever true. Lastly, i just want to tell you, i really still love you alot. No matter what happens, nothing gonna change my love for you. You'll forever will not be replaced by other guys in my heart. Because you're the only guy i loved and you're the only guy which makes me feel what is true love. No other guy can make me feel that only you. And i can say, being with you, i really felt secured. I promise you, no matter what happens, i will not leave you alone. I will always be by your side. Whatever things i promise you before, i wont ever forget. All i can say is this. Haish.

Ily. :(