12th , Everything Ended ?

12th, is everything ended ? Haish idk..
Idk what the hell i'm thinking ytd..
You dont know how i feel when you send the msg to me..
Do you know how hurt am i ? I told you that i cant forget
everything that we had done together and the memories..
You told me this : if you want to forget it, than just try
your best to forget it. you can find better guys.. Do you
know how i will feel ? You dont know. I wanted to tell you
that i cant forget you, the memories & everything that we
had done together.. I wanted to tell you i still love you.
But haish! Everything changed since ytd.. Idk what to do now.
I'm lost, totally lost in nowhere! You told me that i can find
better guys that you? Yes, you are the better guy in my heart.
But just that you need to change your attitude. Your attitude
towards me is really unacceptable. Sometimes quarrel with you,
you attitude me. This thing i can forgive and forget. But you
always like this treat me. And i really cant accept it anymore.
Hello! I'm a human not a non-living thing! I got feelings want okay!
Whatever things i've done i got think for you but did you think for
me? Haish.. Whatever i do is always not right and nobody will appreciate
it de luh. For what i do so much ? I went to your fb and i guess you had
gave up this r/s.. You can still happily playing your blackshot with your
friends, while me ? Kept shedding tears just because i kept looking at
the msg you send to me and the memories we had together.. Guess nobody knows
how i'm feeling now. I know its me who said break but you see your attitude.
Which girl will tolerate your attitude ? I guess only me the only one who is
able to tolerate it for 6month plus. You said that my expectations is too
high? Okay you tell me which girl th expectations wont be high ? You tell me!
Every girl would want a guy to give her security, care her, dote her, love her,
took good care of her, be her listening ear when mood no good, lend her your
shoulder when she cried and cheer her up when she feeling down. And i did ask
my friend about this question is my expectations too high ? He said no, that
is what a boyf should do. And what about you ? Did you gave me all that ? Yes,
you love me, you care me, you cheer me up when i'm feeling down & be my listening
ear. Did you gave me security? When we go out, you not afraid that other guys
will like "jio" me ? No! You walk your way i walk my way. This doesnt look like
couples is like friends. When we go out, did you be auto abit help me take things,
hold hands all this ? No you never. Even if you hold my hands you also dont dare
to hold in front of my friends. When 1st time met you said you shy i gt nth to say
but alr how many months le ? 5month le leh should not be shy anymore le bah ?
Now, i'm thinking that is it fate ? It is that we must really break ? Haish idk..
Well what i want to say had alr say it here. Takecares ..