Can i really know what are you thinking ? And what you really want ? I seriously dont know. You said you dont feel happy, being with me. So can i ask you, what i do then you will feel happy ? And can you really tell me, do you still love me ? Do you need me in your life ? Inside your heart, do i mean anything to you ? Can you forget the past ? Will you miss the past ? You can be able to forget me anot ? I just want a answer yes or no. Not i dont know. There's no i dont know in my dictionary. I seriously just dont wish to let go & giveup on this relationship. Because, i cant do it. I cant even forget you. Do you know, whenever i take a nap, i will dreamt of you. Idk why either. Do you know how much i've miss you & the past ? Haish. I bet you dont know & maybe dont care ? But, i just want you to know what i really wanted, and how i feel thats all . Through this 1week, 1day, do you know i've been thinking of you every single day, hour, mins & secs ? I really really want to know this answer. But i think, your answer maybe will be no ? Idk. Is not that i dont want to give up on you. I know we are not possible to be together anymore? But i just cant giveup. Though, i told you i already giveup on this relationship, actually i just acting strong in front of you. Treat it as i already kan kai le. But actually i didnt. 1day pass 1day, you're always on my mind. Nothing can make me dont think of you. No matter what i do, you will just bu zhi bu jue appear in my mind. I just want you to think very properly and give me a answer. Yes, i know i shouldnt be like this anymore. I should have already given up le. Yes, you did so much things that hurt me, make me cry. I maybe should not have forgive you ? But, whenever i think of the past, i just cant do it.. Haish. I know, i'm useless. I'm weak. I cant do such a simple thing.. Which is forget this relationship and move on. The more i think of you, the more i will cry and cry. Memories kept flashing back by itself. :( But what am i supposed to do ? Haish. Guess whatever things i said, no use le bahs ? Do you know, the way you're treating me now is like totally want to avoid me, treating me like a stranger. You dont even talk to me at all. Do you know how i feel ? Yes, i admit i do avoid you too. Because i just dont know how to face you. But, i'm trying very hard and always wanting to communicate with you, but.. you always with your friends. I cant find a chance to talk to you. I just wish you wont treat me cold or avoid me anymore.. You might find me annoying & irritating but i just want to tell you something.
Cherish what you have now before its gone. Dont wait till its gone and then you come regret and it will be too late already..
P.S Just want to let you know , this is all my feelings. So yup, dont anyhow think. And hope you slowly think properly, because i dont wanna force you. I just want it to be natural.
