Shall let me do my rantings here than. This is my first long post just for you.
Those who know me well, should know who i'm writing in this long post.
Dear xxxx,
Still remember how we know each other ? We know each other at friendster when
I'm sec 2. And you ask me for my msn and yes i gave you. We were chit-chatting
at msn happily for a certain time and you are my Gan Bendan. Than you ask for
my hp number. I gave you my number is because i know that you are not a bad
guy. And as time goes by, you ask me for stead. I was stunned for a few
minutes. And yap, i'm together with you. I still remember that we went to
vivocity for a movie. And when i was cold you held my hands tightly afraid
that i will be cold. How sweet of you uh ? And when the movie ended, you held
my hands and walked around and lastly we dine at banquet at harbourfront. We
both ate chicken cutlet rice. And i still rmb that you were on the phone
with your friend while you were eating and i was kept laughing at you. Haha!
Than you sent me back home. And we also been slacking at my house here.
You sweettalk to me alot. Even on the phone. I love it. And on th day
my bday i've organised a chalet at pasir ris downtown east. You and your
friend came. I was so happy! And we went to ehub tgt with your friend and
my friends. We went to walk around, go eat ice cream and stuffs. And while
waiting for your ice cream you was so hungry that you said, "why mine take
so long! I didnt ate anything leh!" Haha! Cute of you. And after that we
went back to chalet start to play games, bbq and stuffs. I had lots of fun.
During the night where more and more ppl came, i started cake ceremony. And
when you ate finish your cake, you and your friend left first. And from that
time i miss you alot.. Haish. Till after my bday a few wks ltr, you told me
that i never show you any care or concern and you told me you wanted to
break. And i've no choice but to accept your break. Haish! And you were my
Gan baby/Hubby. From that day onwards, i had woken up! I told myself to
changed. And yes i did changed alr. And after we break, whenever i saw your
fb that you're attached to whoever my heart really sank.. Though i know i'm
not a good and caring gf to you. Than, we lose contact cause of you got your
gf while i had my bf. But still, i cant forget about you. And i patched back
with my ex, edwin and you know it too. You wished me lastlong. I dont like!
Cos i wanna be with you.. But as times goes by, i brokeup with edwin due to
some reasons. And a few months ltr, i'm tgt with marshal. He can bring
laughter to my life. But still, i still love you and i cant forget about you!
And i'm tgt with marshal for 6months + and i broke up with him due to some
reasons too. And a few months ltr, we had been contacting each other. We
been texting each other. We joke with each other. And you called me a pig
alien and i called you a monster. Haha! And as day goes by, i told you that
i got something to tell you but idk how to tell you. And you ask it's
something good or bad ? And i tell you for you idk isit a good or bad thing ?
You told me that you got a feeling is a good thing. And after that i told you
that i got feelings for you. And that feeling had kept in my heart for half
a year to one year alr. And you told me that you need time to forget about
your ex because you and your ex brokeup not long and i say okay, i will wait
for you no matter how long. And you replied me "Thankyou god for giving a girl
like you". I was touched. We went out together to farrer park to look for my
prom night stuffs and we have slack together around my house here too. And
on the 16th of october, we are officially together. I was happy! And we
were still texting with each other happily until a certain day sun, you told
me that i treat you like friend not bf that type of feelings. My heart was
sank.. And i told you that i've trying to change and i ask you to give me
time and you say alright and you told me you want sun ji zi ran i was okay
with it. Than you started treating me abit cold.. I did not say out i
kept quiet. And a few days ltr, you told me the same thing again on msn. And
my heart sank very deeply till i cried out.. Haish! And i told you to give
me time to changed you told me this "Dont changed yourself because of your
love ones". I couldnt control so i kept crying.. And i told you to give me
time. You say orh. And the next day morning, you told me the same thing..
And i felt very upset and hurt till idk what to do and what i know is cry..
Haish! And at night 11+ i really cnt take it, i ask you for break. And you
told me sorry about it cos whenever you see me memories will flashback
because of your ex looks alike like me. Haish! You are still in my mind for
13days and i still cant be able to forget about you.. No matter how hard i
tried, i still cant forget about you. Haish ): Imissyou & iloveyou alot too..
Haish! I wish that we can still be together again but i guess its impossible
le.. Everything is just too late ): I hope there will be a time machine that
will rewind back all the past that we both had. But haish ): I just want to
tell you that no matter what happens or who you are together with, i will
always here for you and you will always be deep inside my heart. <3
I love you, xxxx ! ♥♥♥
You're just the only guy that i loved. <3
I just cant be able to forget about you ! Imy~
Thanks for all the love, care & concern that you gave to me.
Thanks for being there for me when i need you.
Thanks for being a good boyf to me.
Thanks for sending me back home whenever i go out with you.
I just want to say Thankyou for everything you do just for me.
